I
was a young girl when President Kennedy was assassinated. There are
many retrospectives on TV as we approach the 50th anniversary of that
tragic event. I well up in tears watching them as if it all just
happened, still haunted by that day. I can barely tear myself away from
TV today just as I couldn’t so many years ago.
I couldn’t possibly do the
justice, for example, that CBS Sunday
Morning did in their coverage of life in 1963 when “Camelot” was in full
swing and the aftermath of the day JFK was shot. It brought back the myriad of
emotions I felt so I want to at least try. The program captured many,
if not all of the elements that made John Kennedy’s brief presidency resonate
so strongly in the hearts and minds of those who lived during that era and even
those who came well after, right up until the present day.
My fascination with John
Kennedy started on November 6, 1960 when my parents brought my brother and I to Bridgeport Airport
in Stratford to
watch as his motorcade passed by us. It was a campaign trip and I recall the
thrill, perhaps even more so in retrospect after he became president, of seeing
him in person.
Yes, it was a fairy tale of
sorts, but does that matter? Even as a young girl, I knew that life would never
be the same following his death. It’s never really about the reality; it’s almost
always about our perception -- how we feel when we see images of the ideal; how
we strive to be like Jack and Jackie, the lead players; and how we still mourn the
shattered idyll, destroyed so cruelly and so irrevocably.
Many of us who lived during
that time can remember those days in November and still feel the overwhelming
grief that replaced charm, wit and optimism. I was glued to the black and white
TV in our living room from the moment I got home from school that Friday, following
the announcement that came over the Trumbull High School PA system. We filed in
stunned silence onto school buses. As if the assassination wasn’t enough, the
following Sunday, as I continued my TV vigil, I watched, live, as Jack Ruby
murdered Lee Harvey Oswald. I shouted down to my mother who was doing laundry
in our basement, “Someone just shot Oswald!”
Talk about reality TV.
The day JFK died, I wrote
down my thoughts on a small piece of lined school loose-leaf paper. I folded it
into a small square and tucked it into the hole in the bottom of a hollow ceramic
statue that sat on a knick-knack shelf in my bedroom. At some point, I must
have destroyed that scrap of paper. I don’t remember when or why. It was
probably too painful to keep, to read and to remember. So when I went to look
for it years later, sadly it wasn’t there. But I can guess what I wrote:
“President Kennedy was assassinated today. I am very sad and I don’t think life
will ever be the same.” And somewhere deep inside of me, I know that turned out
to be true.
In June 1985, President
Ronald Reagan paid tribute to John Kennedy at an event supporting the Kennedy
Presidential Library. I found this excerpt worth reading, and rereading, not
only as a tribute to the man, but as a reminder of how fast life comes and goes
for us all. If we take these words to heart, perhaps we will find in JFK’s
enthusiasm for life and his overriding joy in the journey, short as his was,
some remnant of the optimism for ourselves that once pervaded our country.
“Everything
we saw him do seemed to betray a huge enjoyment of life; he seemed to grasp
from the beginning that life is one fast moving train, and you have to jump
aboard and hold on to your hat and relish the sweep of the wind as it rushes
by. You have to enjoy the journey, it's unfaithful not to. I think that's how
his country remembers him, in his joy. And it was a joy he knew how to
communicate. He knew that life is rich with possibilities, and he believed in
opportunity, growth and action.”
[President
Ronald Reagan, June 24, 1985. http://www.jfklibrary.org/About-Us/About-the-JFK-Library/History/1985-Tribute-by-President-Reagan.aspx
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